[How he wishes he could still lie like he used to. Well he's still good at saying most of the truth, so he'll just cut to the important part.]
It was set during the time we were heading through Nia Khera to stall Jude and the others at the Hallowmount. A few things happened, but—
[How. Does he explain this. Or rather, can he really keep a straight face? Any other day he'd be fine, but with the woman right in front of him, it's harder.]
Even though I knew it was a fractured dimension, I could see my old self and all the mistakes I made. Made me realize that I was a the biggest idiot in the world. And even your fractured self was able to see through my facade and see the truth.
[Just like she always did.]
So after everything you did for me, both before and even after your death, to say that you bother me now or that I don't want you around would be the biggest lie I've ever told. If anything, I want to take this chance to try and amend the damage I've done to you. I know I'm acting selfish here, and that you might not ever completely forgive me. Honestly I'm not even going to ask for it. I don't want you to. [Because what he did? The shit he pulled is something that no one should ever forgive him for. No one. And he honestly still doesn't even understand why she voluntarily meets with him even now.]
But that's why I want to at least try and do something right by you. Even if it's just to help you get used to this place, I'll take it.
[Besides, she's not the first "dead" person from their world. Fractured Milla was the first, and it had been awkward then. But maybe it's thanks to having to deal with that, along with Ludger's later appearance and reveal of his own death, that he's able to just accept Presa's appearance as well. At least in that regard. All the emotional turmoil is different and has to be handled differently, but. At least he feels more grounded and feel like he can. At least for this much.]
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It was set during the time we were heading through Nia Khera to stall Jude and the others at the Hallowmount. A few things happened, but—
[How. Does he explain this. Or rather, can he really keep a straight face? Any other day he'd be fine, but with the woman right in front of him, it's harder.]
Even though I knew it was a fractured dimension, I could see my old self and all the mistakes I made. Made me realize that I was a the biggest idiot in the world. And even your fractured self was able to see through my facade and see the truth.
[Just like she always did.]
So after everything you did for me, both before and even after your death, to say that you bother me now or that I don't want you around would be the biggest lie I've ever told. If anything, I want to take this chance to try and amend the damage I've done to you. I know I'm acting selfish here, and that you might not ever completely forgive me. Honestly I'm not even going to ask for it. I don't want you to. [Because what he did? The shit he pulled is something that no one should ever forgive him for. No one. And he honestly still doesn't even understand why she voluntarily meets with him even now.]
But that's why I want to at least try and do something right by you. Even if it's just to help you get used to this place, I'll take it.
[Besides, she's not the first "dead" person from their world. Fractured Milla was the first, and it had been awkward then. But maybe it's thanks to having to deal with that, along with Ludger's later appearance and reveal of his own death, that he's able to just accept Presa's appearance as well. At least in that regard. All the emotional turmoil is different and has to be handled differently, but. At least he feels more grounded and feel like he can. At least for this much.]